Wednesday, November 12, 2003

It seems like a lot of people I know are having some kind of problems. It's kinda weird how things always seem to happen at once. I feel like lazy bum. I've done sooo much shit today but I've been watching tv for a while. There are things I should be doing but I kinda feel like I deserve a little relaxation. I dunno... I just don't want my grades to suffer because of it. Most of the stuff I should be doing is just studying. Yeah... I worry way too much. I feel like I have a reason to though. I keep rationalizing in my head why it's okay if I don't do like really great in my classes. It works for only a little while until I start beating myself up over it again. Does it matter?? Does it really matter if I graduate with a high three point something... or if it's a low three point something?? Grrrrrrrrr

~*Happiness is not a fish that you can catch.*~ 9:26 PM

Monday, November 10, 2003

I don't want to type too much. It's not that late but Kelly is already in bed and I really hate keeping her up by the sounds of the keyboard. I don't know that it keeps her up but it seems to. I dunno... Maybe she just tosses and turns a lot normally when she sleeps. But yeah, I've been feeling a lot better. Things are going just a little better in general. I don't think I am going to have any tests this week at all. My professor moved the test we were supposed to have on Wednesday to Monday. (MY sociology professor). I'm way ahead on reading in that class too. It's kinda nice cause now when I go back over it none of it will be new material. I will have at least looked at it already. I still haven't really read anything for my psychology class. I have to turn a project in for that class on Thursday. I still have a lot of time to do that though. I plan to work on it tomorrow. Yeah... I'm gonna go now so that I don't bug the crap out of Kelly...

~*Happiness is not a fish that you can catch.*~ 11:35 PM

Sunday, November 09, 2003

I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep. I have a lot I could be doing and I have no motivation for any of it. I'm really desperatly trying to get myself in a good mood and it's just not working. I hate that my future is up in there air. I hate that I am so indecisive about my life. I hate how long it takes me to figure things out. I'm not sure how to make myself feel better... Maybe I will dedicate today to homework or something. Maybe that will make me feel better. Getting a lot done normally has that effect. I'm gonna get to work.. since I've been lazy the whole rest of the weekend..

~*Happiness is not a fish that you can catch.*~ 12:46 PM