Saturday, November 29, 2003

HELL YEAH!!! So everyone knows how much I hate statisitics and how much my grade was riding on this last test.... Well, I got a 109 out of 139!!!... Might not sound good to some people but that's GREAT to me. The class average was 104. I'm hoping he will curve it a bunch so I get an even better grade. yay yay yay... this just means that my grade has a chance of not being a C. I got a B on my sociology test... soooo now all I gots to do is find out my psych test score. OF course, finals could ruin this whole good vibe. That's REALLY possible. I think I will do okay though. Geez... all I want to do is make it through finals so I can come home and celebrate Thanksgiving.

~*Happiness is not a fish that you can catch.*~ 3:45 AM

Friday, November 28, 2003

You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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~*Happiness is not a fish that you can catch.*~ 12:25 AM

I had an actually semi successful Thanksgiving. There was no fighting and almost no real awkward moments. The only thing that got a little awkward was when my aunt asked why my sister and I never came to visit her over the summer. How do you kindly tell a person that you hate their new husband?? Yeah... I dunno... he's one of those creepy middle aged men that you feel like probably stare at teenage girls in the hopes that the teens might like older men... He's just... weird. Yeah, plus, I guess I just have never really liked spending huge amounts of time with my dad's side of the family. Part of my racial history was solved tonight. Apparently my grandma said that our relatives are Spanish. We always assumed they were from Mexico. For all I know though... they could have been from Spain then Mexico and then the US. I'm starting to not care so much. I mean... does it really matter what my race is? No.. not really. The concept of race is so arbitrary anyways... why should it really matter? I guess it's kinda nice to know where you came from though. All that turkey I ate is kicking in. I hope to never make it so that my kids might have three places to eat at in one day unless it's by their choice. I guess one of them was my choice this year but the other two were pretty much mandatory. I surived three houses of food though so I'm pretty proud of myself. I played some Texas hold 'em at my grandma's house. That was pretty fun. I haven't really ever played with people who were sitting in front of me. I've only played online poker... soooo that was pretty fun. Mark was tellin me everything I did wrong and I told him if he wanted to have room to talk he should have played. He still continued to "coach" me...lol. I didn't really mind though. I always forget though all that good strategy stuff when it actually comes to playing. Maybe it'll stick someday. Yeah... time to let the turkey spell to take over.... sleep is good

~*Happiness is not a fish that you can catch.*~ 12:05 AM

Thursday, November 27, 2003

Hmm.. Thanksgiving.... family... yay. I dunno, I'm not sure why I'm not looking forward to today. I have three places to go to and three different groups of people to talk to. It takes so much energy to have a conversation. There are some people who don't take away any energy to talk to... and there are some people you talk to for about five minutes and you feel completely drained like you just ran a marathon. I'm not sure why that happens. It happens to me a lot though. I love talking to people for the most part, but I hate it at the same time. Not a lot of people really get me. I'll say something stupid and people look at me like I'm pocket lint. I don't get that... I mean.. haven't we all said something stupid at one point or another? Just because I happen to say a whole lot of really dumb things doesn't mean I'm more dumb... lol. I think it just means I'm willing to take more risks when I talk. I don't like to keep things in. I like to just say what I am thinking... otherwise, why am I talking to that person? I dunno.... blah blah...

What's up with people... I don't understand them a lot....

~*Happiness is not a fish that you can catch.*~ 11:37 AM

Wednesday, November 26, 2003

It feels so good to be home. I've been spending all kinds of time with my family and Mark. I just baked a cake. I've wanted to do that for a long time now. Thanksgiving is tomorrow and I will probably be making an enterance at three different places. It should be fun.... spending time with family I barely know but I have to act like I do know them. I sometimes wonder what it would be like to actually be close to my relatives. I know there are some people who are. I have a feeling that won't change much... even when I have kids. I want me children to know my relatives though... my family. I guess I should wait until that actually happens though. That won't be for a long while.

My parents have been redecorating. It looks pretty nice. It doesn't really make sense to me how they can redo our house but when it comes to helping me pay for college they are oh so hesitant. Why should I have to take out a loan if they are perfectly capable of helping? My step dad's inheretance has kept me from getting grants but do I seem any of that money?... no. Sooo basically he screwed me over and I can't do a whole lot about it. I know I'm gonna blow up about it at some point. I don't want to but I know it will happen. I wonder if I should warn my mom... hmm.. nah.. what's the fun in that?

~*Happiness is not a fish that you can catch.*~ 3:35 PM